The Fallen Hair

This is a very very busy year!!! Until my hair too fell off out of frustration and stress. I have also not been going for Odissi class anymore since last November 2009. Can't believe it that there is actually a possibility of creating politics in a dance class!! So drama! I am hoping all these will not dampen my spirit to pursue my keen interest in doing Indian classical dance. Yes, after all the cat-figts I am still keen. I know I can be good at it if i persist on =D

The stressed up hair that withers on the Ikea table =(

Yes, somehow I am back to doing design again. Which is really stressful. It's like getting involved in a relationship sometimes. You have to nurture it. You have to really put your heart into it Feeling it. Getting inspired and start giving LOVE! In the design aspect, you gotta start churning good designs of course. Argh, I always ended up in scandals - in the design aspect of course =P and it's called getting copied inspired by other's design =D What to do.. I've got a dateline to meet!

I would like to further blog about how shitty suppliers freak the shit and puss out of me and how I would like to burn their factories and set them ablaze too.. but I suppose blogging and not doing it in reality will not really make an impact. Neither will it solve the case of not getting my mock up done in time. Sigh...I wish I had better things to talk about like how to make a hair bun like Cheesie

Anyway, I am scavenging my boxes of newly bought stuff and already planning on what to wear for Chic Pop! =D  I don't personally know why am I feeling so delirious about it. After all, it's not like I will be attending the Grammy Awards and sitting next to ( i can't even name any artiste!) and getting smooched by (again, I can't even name any artiste!)

Yippi Yaya Excess Baggage Top from Lah Lah Land

Tie Dye Leggings from Vintage Japan

Preloved Atmosphere dress fron Vintage Vanity

so is the quirky necklace! =D

Rocker skull top from Vintage Vanity

Vintage Vanity have got loads of stuff for hot fatties and accesorie-nista =D

Hop over and see if anything catched your eyes.

And as usual, I can't stand my hair getting longer. I got my short fringe back! =D

AKU CUTE!

Random Shots

the bumiputras in the office =D

Sunday Jitters

black top - RM19.90 (Next Shop-Mid Valley) | Fake batik printed skirt - RM29 (Tyra Mei-Amcorp) | Jane Birkin Bag in brown - RM45 (Alicewonders.com) | marketing folder - company's =D

Ahhaha... most probably I have nothing to shout about my attire to work.. cus it's so not adaptable to a lot of people. Who never seem to get the reason behind me wearing it as such =D Anyway...

Did I tell you I have developed a weak heart since the end of year 2009? I felt like collapsing at the very moment of visualising and made into realisation that I haven't been making big figures on my work portfolio for the recent years. Maybe I shouldn't even talk about this and ruin my online portfolio as a salesperson who do not do well in THIS particular industry =(

I was clearing some old junks and piles of documents which I still keep when I started my selling-hood till now. Yes, I have got myself a Self Sales Executive job way back post 2005/2006 and later an Assistant Sales Manager. Seriously I think th eposition of an Assistant Sales Manager is redundant, as it still requires one to sell and co-ordinate and preach at the rest of the sales people while the Sales Manager... manages?. I was then a Business Development Executive in another company which left me traumatised with a pungent office environment. The organisation is there, at the same office, with the same staff 15 years back. The cleaner lady, the chairs, the manager, the tables, and everything is stagnantly there since 10 years back! So you can imagine the pungent smell of old chairs, old paper boxes, old people... -__-
But I do have some very good figures which left me the freedom to yell at the person who hires me =P

Yeah, I keep track of the big big figures I bring in =)

And now I am in such a homey office, with proper pantry, proper people (hmm), proper seatings, gorgeous showroom, superb discussion area, but depressing sales dysfunction -__-

Gorgeous discussion area. Visit me!

Gorgeous seatings!

pretty long wait daily to meet prospects.. super uber-sien

waiting in where ever place imaginable. Where do you think this is?

It's the jitter again. To get back to work on Monday with no decent appointments.

Need to send out quotes.

Need to send out proposals.

need to meet more prospects.

Need to lie down..

My heart is weak again...

Archive of Post

Gosh, I missed the attention from guest blogging in YSK. And I don't even see her online nowadays.

Sha-lene!!! Where are you!!!

HERE

I was planning to post about how I shed tears during my drive back home. Yeah, I cried. I hate the torment of being stuck in jam on the way home. It's a dilemma everyday. If I failed to manage my time, I will most probably end up parking alone the road to 'the place where I stay'. It's really a dilemma everyday which leads me to crying. Because I am tired of driving to appointment. and after work I again have to drive and get stuck. So I cried. Because while getting stuck, I have a curfew to reach home before 9pm. Because after that, i will have to park somewhere along the road and walk and risk Jinjang fella attempting to scratch / mutate / steal my car.

Anyway....I shall save it for another session when I cried and survived to make another post.

BAZAARS!
Chic Pop - 30th January 2010

Threadzoo Bazaar Vol 01 - 6th to 7th February 2010

Lelong Lelong Marketplace No. 3 - 16th - 17th January 2010

Not too sure what's with me, but I seemed to get pretty excited knowing there will be bazaars that I can poke my head into! =D
Yeah, so I am most probably trying to go to at least one if not all =D
See you there! Say Hi to me if you do bump into me =D

The Point Is

Second day into work and some old fark made a missed call only to expect me to call back.
Arse : Harlow! Where are u?
-_-   : work..
Arse: Orhh!..Working la?
-_-  : yah...
Arse: Erm... no la, just call to see how are u and everything..
-_-  : ok..
Arse: U know ah.. recently I made a sales again! I am the top sales! I did not want to brag to anyone but I am the top sales person in my company. I didnt mean to call but I am the top salesperson who made the higherst sales. I got some product training and I made a sales recently worth a thousand oover ringgit. I am the only top sales.
-_-  : ok..
Arse: It is not like I want to brag, but I am the top of all the people in my present company now.
-_-  : ok..
Arse: well, ok la, i just thought of calling only. bye bye..
-_-  : ok...

no, I do not know what is the point till now..
maybe it is a calling that I am no good in what I do and that I should jump off from the window behind my desk?

Impossible

I missed those moments when I did so well in my job raking in contracts with much ease.
Complications at site are easily settled by just making sure I attend site meeting in high slit skirts and high heels. And sales reports were so much easier to do as the number of 0,000,000 just keep going.
It is now 4.45am of the 3rd day of 2010 and I am still awake making notes and scribbles to make some contents for a sales and marketing plan. While going thru 3 diaries. While reading thru ministry websites. While going thru costing. While looking for a way out of the rut.

What if I overestimated my capability by committing a forecast of RM60,000 a month worth of sales? After all, there are times when RM1,000 seems impossible too. I shivers at the thought of failing again. What a thought! On the 3rd day of a new year. a year when the world economy is expected to improve.

RM60,000 does not sound like a lot to people who sells rice, who sells microchips, who sell services, who sells properties, who sells branded bags. Then why does it sound like a tonne of weight on my shoulder? RM60,000 x 12 months is not even 1 million RM worth of batik that I can sell.

I could have become a write shall I not be forced to get my ass into learning about atoms and nucleic acids. I could have become an author of several books shall I not be coaxed into memorisng the coagulation of some chemical substances which I cannot even pronounce. Maybe I am now a journalist going around the world travelling and writing stuff on Oprah Winfrey and doing freelance scriptwriting and getting to do a few episodes of Mr Bean.

And I am now here. Here. At where I am here. Here. No longer hoping for a twist of fate. Only to hope to sell at least 100 pcs of batik of RM380 per piece.

Fuck.
That's only RM38,000..
Fuck.
I am doomed.
Fuck.

In 2009

Ming weds Suren

I started back on running

Attended my first Indian dance recital / concert watever u call it

Decides to start liking artsy stuff

Tried turning to God for prosperity and help me fend off ghost

Went to Hanoi. No, this is not a boyfriend. Couldn't find any pics with Vietnamese words but this

Working backstage

This is how backstage is. Not the one as pictured above this

Attempted to get rich and bought A lottery ticket

Went to Phuket and it wasn't great.

Went to Berlin and am not impressed with what's around. Maybe I am tired. But definitely better than Phuket!

Watched Man Utd in Bukit Jalil!! Awesome!

Sold off the old car and got a new one

I ventured into the world of guest blogging

And still not getting famous. Yet..

Got to know a lot of virtual friends who is now shopping buddies. yes virtual friends is not about having virtual sex only. There are better things to do also.

Attended my first bazaar

Got hotter

Got hooked into the wonders of maxi

Continued clubbing

Inserted a Cilaq into err...

I still think I am HOT
=D

Things That I Will Still Do in 2010

1- Drink more than the year before
2-Call you a bitch who deserve to rot in hell if you are worth the calling
3- Keep a box of cigarette in the car. Yes
4- Have afternoon nap whenever possible
5- Hate you if you are hate-able
6- Attends dates, but reducing on dating jerks, ego-swine, jerks.
7- Shop online, splurge online.
8- Bitch online
9- Procrastinate to wash my car. OK, maybe I will give it a wax
10-Sleep late to work
11-Go for marathons whenever possible. Despite knowing my calves are looking like some cow's calf with extra muscle
12- Wish for bigger boobs. Nathalee says self massage does wonder. I say it's not really something I would want to spend an hour on mis-using my set of hands
13-Yell at people who ask for donations while you are eating and shoving their passes to your forehead
14- Buy more books and keep telling myself I will read. I will. I will try to read more than last year
15- Camwhore. Like a whore if i feel like
16- Think I am hot. HOT
17- .....procrastinate..

to be continued...
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i am sleepy....