Yesterday I was someone. But I always thought that I am Suetha the Indian Classical Dancer. Then today I am Suhana. Day before I was Suet Mun. Welcome to my alter ego page..

Yours truly,
Suhana Suetha

Sunday, December 28, 2008

The Breathing Stopped.. post CNY


How would you want your life to end?

in pain of sickness?

in a tragic mishap on the road?

in a bloody gang fight?

in a misery over life hence leaping from the building?

have you given it a serious thought?

I tried thinking about it.. dying seems hard to visualise..

There aint short cut to it..

When you disovered you got a disease, everyone is dragged down with your
sickness. want it or not, thay have to empathise with your suffering and FEEL
for you. Those who are close to you suffer most.. They most probably gotta take
turn to care for your needs and bear your grievances in how life is not being
fair to you. and you only.

You may take a year having your life dragged in pain. with your bowel
slowly getting dysfunctional. your frames minimising. you starts to develop
blank stare. and sometimes sees the demon from hell guarding you by the side.
there is so much pain to wanting to survive. there is equally as much pain to
those around you trying to make your day. You may as well die faster.

But as all know, life is never easy. U not only gotta go through the
epitome of life in hardship, but when you think of dying its also not
easy.

Then you thought maybe the rat poison will be a fast remedy. With a
concoction of the Deathful Margarita ( concocted of Vodka, rat poison in powder,
a spoon of dettol, pinch of lime, with glass lined with detergent), I don't
think it will sail you to death-dom just by falling asleep. The anatomy reject
the potion you have just drank with different kinds of twitches. Tummy starts to
twitch

How would you want your life to end?
in pain of sickness?
in a
tragic mishap on the road?
in a bloody gang fight?
in a misery over life
hence leaping from the building?
have you given it a serious thought?
I
tried thinking about it.. dying seems hard to visualise..
There aint short
cut to it..

When you disovered you got a disease, everyone is dragged
down with your sickness. want it or not, thay have to empathise with your
suffering and FEEL for you. Those who are close to you suffer most.. They most
probably gotta take turn to care for your needs and bear your grievances in how
life is not being fair to you. and you only.

You may take a year having
your life dragged in pain. with your bowel slowly getting dysfunctional. your
frames minimising. you starts to develop blank stare. and sometimes sees the
demon from hell guarding you by the side. there is so much pain to wanting to
survive. there is equally as much pain to those around you trying to make your
day. You may as well die faster.
But as all know, life is never easy. U not
only gotta go through the epitome of life in hardship, but when you think of
dying its also not easy.

Then you thought maybe the rat poison will be a
fast remedy. With a concoction of the Deathful Margarita ( concocted of Vodka,
rat poison in powder, a spoon of dettol, pinch of lime, with glass lined with
detergent), I don't think it will sail you to death-dom just by falling asleep.
The anatomy reject the potion you have just drank with different kinds of
twitches. Tummy starts to twitch as if there's a live crab craving to crawl out.
Then your pituitary glands sweats out the most salty of all sweat, increasing
the body temperature while at the same time the coldness of wringing to death
creeps in. But....

CHOI!!! I dunno why I have this post on post-Chinese New Year ... wrote this a couple of weeks back when I am deeply stressed with work, I think.. it's such a waste not to post. And takkan I have to wait for another period when I go into depression again to have this posted up! Choi!!
Post new year doesnt really affect me much.. things are basically same.. But the thoughts of having nothing to work on makes me feel uncomfortable.. It's like being retrenched and got stuck at home being helpless.. So this morning and went back to office and got some files and design to work on during the new year... :)
Post new year didnt really bring much luck too for a lot of people... a colleague just hit a tree, someone just hit my car while in parking mode, someone just decided to resign due to unexpected circumstances, another just hit someone along the highway on a sunny day. Even the lorry driver whom I engaged to do some transfer work got his engine overhauled!!!... think this COW year is a bad omen...

I would like to take all the mishap as a clearance of all the sins that we have and about to commit... please do not put a black cloud on my work and sales...

so hoping that things will go well and the Berlin thingy materialise!!! GOD please HELP!!!

and I shall end my post with a stupid picture of meself


:)

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