Inequality in My Eye

And this is how I felt about the world.
Not realising that we are indeed very lucky to be able to get something without much consideration, there are just people out there who simply cannot afford those little pleasures in life.

I really do not like these kind of moments. Where the reality of life stuck me and hit me on the head but I think once in a while we need the reality check to ground us back into being humble and not over the board with our hectic lifestyle of always pursuing more than what have been offered to us..

And with a single chant of Namaste, I hope tomorrow would be a better day to us all. The lorry driver, the clerk, the petrol attendant, the managing director and to everyone...

Namaste

Namaste

Namaste allows two individuals to come together energetically to a place of connection & timelessness, free from d bonds of ego-connection. If it is done with deep feeling in the heart and with d mind surrendered, a deep union of spirits can blossom. 
Namaste to All from me … placing hands together at d heart chakra, close d eyes, & bow the head.

Never did I know the beauty of the gesture that we have to perform before and after our yoga session. The bow (Nama) and Namaste as a whole means I Bow to You, symbolises humility and respects. The thumbs pressed and locked to the chest which is the chakra of the soul symbolises a one's desire to let go off their ego.


Saying Namaste in the proper gesture is basically to acknowledge and accepting the other person, without any ego or grudge for what they are.


And today I learn the power of Namaste. Hate mails and angry statement hurled over my head have very little effect on my nerve. Yes! It did not get into my nerve. Unless before, where I will be boiling in rage and waging war with words, seeing or hearing these angry 1200dB statement just did nothing to alter my mood. 


I have also began to see that one becomes angry because of them self. Their inability to adhere and adjust to 
their surrounding. It isn't really anybody's fault.


Have you ever felt angry when you reach the bank and the queue was extremely long? You become restless and murmur words of anger. It isn't the fault of the 30 people in front of you. It's your own fault for failing to acknowledge that if you want to avoid waiting, you need to be there early and beat the queue.


Have you ever felt angry just because you felt that the character / behaviour of the girl next door agitates you and that you hate looking at her face for no particular reason except that she may have complexion better than yours? It isn't her fault. It is really you who is not able to accept the flaw in you and the perfection in others and you pick  a target to be angry at. Yes, any target but yourself.


Because you think you are god. And you refused to accept that sometimes there are people better than you. You eventually get trapped in your own complexity and you refused to accept any shortfalls. From yourself or from others. For instance, a blind man takes forever to cross the road and hold you back from driving further. And so you may not blame him, but you blame the passerby who did not help him cross the road. Or you blae the government for not building pavement for these people who will not block your way. OK, maybe this is not a very good example. 
What about you blaming your hair dresser for not doing a good job? Despite you paying peanuts or your hair itself is already in the wheatgrass mode.


I was once almost falling into that trap. No staff can make me happy. I complain when they walk so slow. I complain when the lines drawn are not neat. I complain when they take long naps. Basically I thought I am god with a capital GOD.


My perspective have changed. Perhaps due to the fact that I am now mixing with people of very positive vibes. And not homo-GOD :) Or perhaps I have just realised life is such a great experience to live for and not to be wasted on thinking hard of the worst name calling one can come up with. Instead, enjoy the company of those who remembers your presence.


Being angry is such a tiring process and totally low in Return of Investment. Do you know what a waste it will be when you keep boiling with rage and call names when the other end is happily laughing out loud enjoying a series of Mr Bean. That's what they call in Malay - 'menyalak ke arah langit' . And end up having sleepless night trying to strategise plans according to the Sun Tzu Art of War in order to wage more verbal war which again increases blood pressure and still no ROI...


Now, I accept each of the individual I have to deal with no grudges and expectation ;)  Regardless of skills, mentality, personal character and defects. We may not be on good terms with every beings in the world, but each one have their own lives and it's really up to them to dictate if they want to be a prostitute, a bugger, Prime Minister, loser or beauty pageant. Whatever and whoever they are, we only wish them the best for any path taken, and bring ourself to sleep with no dreams of having to kill anyone in silence or in public ;)


Namaste...

Fun in the Tumblr

It's so fun to pen down small notes and single picture post once in a while and stop rambling in long fictional posts in a blog =D

I love my Tumblr!

Phailed Angelina Jolie Inspired Make Up

Perhaps the make up didn't fail as much, but my constant happy smirk and vain smile could have be the major FAIL factor =D
Had a brief watch of Promise Phan's Angelina Jolie make over while slathering on the BB cream. I have less tolerance in learning days ahead and prefer to watch and do nowadays.

Angie doesn't smile away happily like this! ;)

I no longer uses found-du-teint since I have discovered BB cream and Missha of Korea is my favourite =D Oh well, not that I have taken much initiative to try other brands. Yet.

Slap on BB cream evenly and set it with loose powder. As I am merely doing it for camwhore purpose, hence slap thick thick also OK since I am going to sweat and melt my own make up.

Slathered on BB cream and set it on the lips too =P

I love nude lips!

Fill in those brows of yours. I normally dig my Etude brow filler pen which work wonders and gives really natural strokes. On lazy days, black / dark brown eye shadow normally does the job faster =P

Arch those brows like how Promise does it ;)

I think I arched the wrong brow...

Cus Promise arched it on the left and mine is on the right... =_=

Anyway....

Swipe on the white shade to highlight the brows. Oh! Before I did that, I have dabbed on Body Shop Highlighting Concealer on the arches of the brow. As what Promise taught ;D 

Swipe the white shades thoroughly overall (according to me)

Then use a shade of brown to start shading. Promise uses a relatively dark shade. But I chose a lighter shade of brown compared to hers as she had slightly tanned complexion and I am definitely not tanned. Hence too dark a shade may appear too edgy and hard. Stroke on to the middle of the lid and blend, blend, blend.

I followed the nose contouring too.. which appear kinda scary on me =P She have got prominent nose and I have got Jackie Chan nose.. =0= Anyway, since I do not know how to shade a Jackie Chan nose, I followed how Promise shade lor....

Seriously a wrong approach on the nose =P

Then, as seen in the video, I am to line my center of eyelid with liquid liner. Which I did and it didn't turn out pretty. Which I later demolish by rubbing some Bio-Oil and re-draw the second time. Which also is as screwed as the first time. I don't know why! So I decided to smudge it with the brush to soften the edges. Though that was not what was told in the video ;)

Line the centre of the lids and finally line the edge of the eyes as usual and create the cat eyes' lines as usual.

The lined centre-lid to create a sort of double lid

Cheek contouring is fun! But I must admit much skills is required and will only work when paired with good skills in angling your face when camwhoring. I have yet to perfect the skills ;(

tranny in the making =P

So yeah, and the basic application applies.. line the lower edges with white eye pencil to create bigger eyes, then line with black shadow for the sunken effect and a stroke of brown acroos the whole of the lower lid (for don't know what reason) and later finish off with white glitter or sort at the corner of the eyes..

The cheek contour didn't work well, I have to suck in ;)

All in all, I still have some decent look for weekend camwhore session =D
But not in resemblance in Angelina Jolie's. Not her mom. Or her aunt -__-

Maxi dress from Lollysta

Learn the real thing here : Promise Phan

Am I Complicated?

The past couple of weeks have been insanely full of activities. Work basically.
Pasar Night too is taking too much of my time with heaps of post to bump up. This month prediction as per what I read in Lilian Too's forecast of the month wasn't that promising, hence my chicken-feet instinct prompt me to work harder than usual to make ends meet. I really am hoping that all things shall go well, and all proposal gets approved. I desperately need to make it before fire comes down my neck again.
Oh yes, it ain't easy. Ain't easy at all to be in this crate of work. The amount of stress re-gurgitating within your mind, body and soul can sometimes kill. As at now, I suspect the amount of stress have converted itself into lards stored in my body. A freaking 70kgs I am :)  Thank you very much. Call me fat, but still HOT!

This is the second month of yoga which I find didn't really did much in relaxing, destressing or soothing out my mind of thoughts. I can't blame the yoga session. Maybe it's just me. And the amount of bewildered thoughs in me have been contained in my rusty mind for so long i doubt a 2 month yoga stint would even do any miracle. But of course, I do look forward to it, because that is most probably the only ME activity that I could do each week. And the fact that I can't wait to see how much I can flex my organs =D

It has also been awhile since I let my creative juice flow. I have literally, practically, realistically stopped designing, drawing, sketching. If scribbling phone numbers on the note pad cold be counted as creative doodle, perhaps that's the only artsy thing I have done of late.

I can draw wei!!

I also found some scan copy of design concept for a show (MOFEW to be exact) which I conceptualised for a friend but didn't take on. Nay, design isn't what I loathe doing. Merely a vent of creative juice when minds are empty. But it is indeed a therapy at times when one really need a break from the hectic figurative reporting.

But most of the people who draw seldom make a lot of money. They keep drawing and drawing and still do not make a lot of money.  I can't think of anyone who drew and made a lot of money and ca afford to stop drawing. But of course, there are people who draw and draw and have gallery exhibitions. Which again, I don't know if they make any money. Because most of them do not charge entrance fees. So, do they actually make any money? I don't know...

By now you would have realised my blog actually doesn't have much content. It is all baseless statement based on my lingering mind.. 

I guess I am tired from trying to be normal.

Yesterday, I just realised I am not as normal. I am actually rather complicated that I am unable to justify how normal am I, as it just doesn't seem like a normal character for me to react in a manner which I reacted anyway. Perhaps, it isn't the complication of character in me. 

Perhaps, it's clouds of ego that surrounds me that I find it very hard to break.

years of cementing alot of thoughts have really complexify me ;( 

I need to break free..

Yoga on heels ain't the solution to break free. See I told ya I'm not normal!!