That Neverending Job

In less than 2 weeks, I will be embarking on something new.
I most probably will have to have a change of routine - sleeping at 10pm and waking up at 4am to blog a post, work out, and be prepared to leave to the office by 7am. Such are changes that I CANNOT FORESEE will happen successfully.

While I am mentally preparing to brave the new world, I feel sad to have to leave my current place ;(

No one understand how I can tolerate not getting my salary on time. Sometimes a month late and sometimes 3 months late. No one gets it why I must pay for other office expenses that starts from hundreds and can go up to thousand With my own pocket money. When I don' have my salary yet. No one gets it why I do not confront the wage master and demand for prompt payment.

Not because I have too much money and no where to flock. Not because I own the company partially.
But because I understand what it is to operate own company. For so many years of my working life, I have been working for SME's and small business setup that yearns to grow and I understand so well how despite the facade of an office with a big signboard and a luxury vehicle driven by the owner of a company, there lies a pocket that is almost empty at the end of the month.

And I also understand the theory that all staff that earns a meagre income too needs to have their salary no matter how bad the company fare in collection. Because they work for one reason - to get an income every month for the sake of survival. I love money! But sad to say, as mentioned by the new boss whom I met briefly during my  final job interview, she can see that I am more work driven that money driven. Which may not be good for a sales person since our wealth depends on how hard we strive to make more sales :/

I don't think I will make a good boss - I micro manage too much and cannot stand seeing people being idylic at work :/
I sometimes gets very emotional too when someone didn't do as I instructed. I obviously nags a lot.
I also cannot foresee working too long for people. Perhaps this perception would change, after so many years in working up other people's business, I am back into a proper working world where I only need to do my scope and not monitor the entire production or operation team too. Could be good- means I only have myself to take care of.  Could be bad - since I have so much empathy towards others (busybody like dat)

Everytime I leave a workplace, I felt like I have sinned towards clients that I have served. I loved them! I hope they loved me as much XD
I hate to leave clients felt like they have no one to depend on when the person who serves them all the while leave them to a new person and a new directive of work flow.

I feel bad... really bad :(

only wanted the flower inside the hamper, so I tore a spot just to take the flower =P

ended up going home with the whole stash :/