TODAY - 2015 Day 1

Nope, not going to have any new year resolution because 2 weeks after I REALLY did write down any, it's washed off my mind anyway.

All I really really secretly want is to go back to a size 12.
Yes, I want a 39" butt and that's it. Nothing more. I wanna be able to wear skint tight dresses like a super bitch. OK, now it's no longer a secret.

The whole of 2014 has been nothing but a series of depression mainly due to work. And I tell you, once depression hits, it takes damn a very long time to get back on track to being even slightly positive. It just doesn't seem to have anything much to look forward to. I am mentally drained and physically bloating!

I supposed there isn't anyone to be blamed unto except myself. Perhaps I am just not good at what I do. I think.

Procrastination, de-focus and attempting to multi-task just ain't gonna work.

I am secretly hoping to make some changes. On my own.

For this new year, see no resolution from me. All I wish to do is to start to read alot, document my daily task and hope that I will be able to create a healthier habit at life, at work and generally just hoping that I will survive another year with more ups than down. (this is so no me!)

Yeah, I think my objective in life is getting less complex when life hits 35. All I want to do is to be able to finish up my work, go home and do some miniature stuff for my dolls, add some dolls to my collection, buy lots of dresses and maintaining looking hot and I want to do all this with no worries :)



Happy New Year.

Today

A dream cost nothing. Hence I dream a lot. 

A decision requires action. Hence at times when my decision is not crucial, I opt to keep mum.

And continue dreaming..

And when dream does not come true, 

because of a bad decision made,

we make more reason to back up the decision made

This is a dream that did not come true.. haha!

A decision could be a solution

But a decision can also be a responsibility

Deciding on a solution can sometimes injects lots of hearth throbbing stress

But someone have got to make the first move

and see where will the move leads to

At everytime, every move, I always hope that it is the right move that I made

because I fear dejection, rejection and suppression ;(

someone gotta make some decision here!

So much have been going on this couple of months, and so many months have been going off my radar in a wisp.

It is tiring. Really tiring ;(

So tiring that I have left my camwhoring skills to rot!

Writing skills too deteriorate. I just realised I have totally forgotten about my TESL study O.o

Saturdays are so full I can't find time for yoga. My eyes is so heavy that I almost bang into a car the other day.

But I am not complaining. Yet. I think I can do better. I hope I have been better. because I want to be better!

I miss camwhore session!

It was the day when I got these batch of cushion cover with the word 'TODAY' that I have asked my girl to draw, did I realise how meaningful is TODAY! Just like how Sha-Lene always yaps at why TODAY is so signifiant to her and brings such deep meaning despite such a simple word.

It is Today that gives you the memory of yesterday and what you intend to do Today brings you rays of hope for a better tomorrow ;)

And TODAY, I shall follow the path I think is mine ;)