Fake it till you make it

I was looking forward to the long holiday.

Because I thought I will do some serious doll play.

As in, taking out my dolls, and play with them on a more serious note.

I didn't take any out. Only went to collect 2 preloved Ever After High dolls I bought off from a friend.

I am  tired.  3/4 of the holidays are spent on the bed. I don't know how I did it. But yeah - I am tired.

It doesn't have to take a genius to wake me up from all my negative thoughts - of going to work, of seeing the people I do not wish to deal with and of meeting deadlines and KPIs. 

I guess I sort of know that things won't go to a better side if I keep dwelling on it.

I missed the interview to Air Asia. This is most probably the only opportunity I have ever come across that have really made me sleepless as I really really seriously want to be attached to a multi-national firm. 

As corporate as I may sound, but no, I have always been attached to SMEs. Nevertheless, the amount is shit hurled at me while being in SMEs does bring in a lot of benefits. Because you sort of know how to make use of shits, putting each and every resources to good use. 

On a brighter note, perhaps my time is not up yet. One day... just one day, I am pretty confident that I will make it up somewhere, if not heaven or hell. Let me feel the corporate air!!!!

Less than 10 hours before I start a new week at work. And the piles of documents on the desk seems untouched. Damn! I really needa change my blog content! All I can write is the amount of workload I have - incomplete somemore.

On a random note, this year I will be hitting 36 years old. Freaking scary that nothing can be done to turn back time and my wardrobe is full of girly stuff that I reluctantly want to dispose. 

There is so much I have yet to achieve and so much more to do. I wish I have all the time to get everything ticked off the to-do list.

I guess, for now I can't do much but to fake it till I make it and hope that tomorrow will sail smoothly.

are you happy?

What Kinda Blogger Are You?

Work is crazy busy shit.
Yet I managed to still flip thru some those peak chapters in a Virginia Andrews'.
Didn't plan to blog as I couldn't even finish my list of contacts to start contacting since the boss is looking into drilling everyone's ass till it bleeds. After all, the fittest shall survive.

I just had to rant it out again.
Was looking into piles of blog contents submitted by the participating bloggers in some of the events that I manage.
Seriously - why do people call themselves bloggers, have call cards to remind others that they BLOG. Some call themselves EDITOR, obviously editing their own contents from their own BLOG, despite that lackadaisical of language command

So I wiki-ed 'blog' just to see of I have too high an expectation on what is called a blog, blogger and people who blog. Afterall, I don't want to be bitched about in the world of blogosphere about what a bitch I am.

As derived from wiki :

A typical blog combines text, images, and links to other blogs, Web pages, and other media related to its topic. The ability of readers to leave comments in an interactive format is an important contribution to the popularity of many blogs. Most blogs are primarily textual, although some focus on art (art blogs), photographs (photoblogs), videos (video blogs or "vlogs"), music (MP3 blogs), and audio (podcasts). Microblogging is another type of blogging, featuring very short posts. In education, blogs can be used as instructional resources. These blogs are referred to as edublogs.

I don't know about most of other people. In YourShoppingKaki, we are taught to really 'pen down'/ 'write out' contents in words format. Pictures are very important of course, as it serves as a visual illustration to contents that you are about to pen. But what are pictured without contents? And what are contents without picture?

This is what I call seriously illustrious with no pictorial elaboration : Rob Fitzgerald

This is what I called tasteful picture that speaks for itself in it's own style : STRAPPED only minimal words to guide you thru strings of powerful pictures. 

This is what I called an influential blogger who can have as much words as the pictures in a single post : Cheeserland

And because of the requirement that my editor imposed in YourShoppingkaki - yes, the editor does have her set of requirement and proof read every single words and checks every other margin, we the bloggers know that each post is only a post when you WRITE / PEN DOWN in words format only to be accompanied with pictures to enhance your post. It's almost like a sin if your post does not come with illustrious sentences.

And here I am, looking some sites that took forever to load as the post is loaded with pictures and nothing but pictures, only to be accompanied with last 5 lines that gives some linkbacks.

I don't need a blogger to do that. I only need an upload device. An automated one perhaps. 

What kinda blogger are you?

Money Money Money, It's so Funny

Today I was introduced to this video during the Parenting Talk that Penny conducted in MoneyTree Sri Hartamas today.
To have one post about what financial literacy is, is absolute impossible. 
Well, not like I will be able to educate anyone on you out there on how crucial financial literacy is to everyone and how it impacts us in our daily life. 
But as I have been attending almost 5 session by now, willing or not, each time I leave with a determination to be financially smarter than the session before. 
Educating our mind to be financially savvy is not something easy especially at our age as we tend to acknowledge and forget. Acknowledging how crucial it is that we need to be smart in managing our cash, only to forget about the seriousness of the issue when we are lured with material happiness. We call this temptations, impulse, demons...

Attitude towards money 

Just exactly what does that mean?

As part of the online community that contributes quite a reasonable amount to shop online, I must say I need to review the attitude I have put forward to the money that I have. Or not have. It's so easy to spend. And sometimes it's just so easy and tempting that we often forget to ask ourself ' Do we need it? Or do we want it? Would you die if you don't have it? Would you lost your status as a fashion icon if you do not own that quilted bag inspired from Chanel? If you can't afford a RM3000 Chanel quilted bag, would spending RM120 on an inspired version be justifiable to ensure you hold the title of being fashionable? Can you still maintain your identity (in this case, fashion icon) IF you do not have that quilted bag - original or inspired. All this thoughts roaming wild in your mind and rummaging the credit cards in your wallet while sneering at your monthly salary of RM3000.

Just how do one decide? How do you expect a shopaholics and a fashionista to be able to come out with a calm logic when faced with such a situation?

I have stopped shopping for the past couple of weeks. Except for 2 grande cappucino from Starbucks and a 100 ringgit worth of granolas (alll for the health!). I would have shopped if the wages is visible to my bank account. 

This is a weird post... coming from someone like me..But yeah, I guess I am considering hard to take charge of my life. Finally. 2 credit card cancelled, resunscribing to the Employees Provident Fund (by force) and joining the work force in a proper work place (hopefully)..

Shuffling up to Puchong

Everyone need some Booty Swing.
Be it in shuffle mode, swing mode, or chicken mode ;)

The swing version

 Shuffle version

Chicken version lolol

 A freaking 6 minutes for this Chambermaid Swing! Don't know if I can attempt this ;/

Another attempt to try on!




On a random note, this fast beat Korean moves doesn't seem too dificult on the moves =D

I got the offer today after a second screening. I don't know how many have been screened though. It has been years since I first attended any job interview. It sounded like I am gonna embark on a pretty exciting work scope ahead. 

Have always wanted to seriously do marketing instead of dabbling into 1001 things in an office operation. I guess this will most probably be my first proper route to a proper job. In an industry not known to me. There is a mixed feeling. Of wanting to excel and there is this nervousness that I may have lost my tempo at doing sales pitching after so many years.

Somehow I have this small lil vision that I will make it thru. Well, I always have vision.. :/

I have exactly a month to leave nothing but a good trail behind. Exactly a month to transfer knowledge.

I still haven't figure a casual way of saying I am leaving..

Super sigh................

Year In Year Out

Today isn't the first day of a new year.
I was too lazy and did this half way, only to return to it now..
Anyway....


Today is the first day of another new calendar year.
This year, not too many new calendars collected.
Got a diary from the insurance agent as per every year. Perhaps I should really make use of it and document everything that needs to be done daily.
I have been lagging. For the past year.

The past year was a year I got totally clean from that horrid working place - Meesha Suckira that sucked my life out of this body. In return, I got rewarded. With a man who loves me like there is no other woman in the world anymore. Yeah, I got my life back. Being able to have some personal time doing things out of the work zone. For the first time also in my life, I think I have finally settled down to the idea that I wouldn't mind being loved by someone. And for the first time in my super ambitious mind to have lowered down to a mind set of not even wanting to pursue a career anymore. It is like... I have achieved the zen of normal human life like that!

please do not steal my man!

Today wasn't too great a day. Was hot. Had to wake up early to return this set of jewellery made of metal which was once GIFTED to me. I seriously thought when one say, "... this is my gift to you..." it means being offered to you at no hidden cost. Turn out the hidden cost was actually there! I should have listened to some friends who said it can't be true. I seriously thought that there are genuinely kind soul out there.
All this hoo-haa finally lead me to being able to filter out the different type of educator / teacher / master. A real educator have genuine followers who will be by his / her side because they may see the same vision and mission. A bad one just keep reminding you that the economy is not doing good and there is a need to increase practising fees. As there are bills to be paid for their own life.
I was once very genuine in my pursue. Until I have been constantly reminded by the one who impart knowledge that  they are more keen to have your money - not that I am not willing  to pay. But it doesn't compensate the experience gained. Now it makes sense why the group of followers were just never a pool big enough to impress..
So. bye bye to something that I have always wanted to do since the age of 13 - indian classical dance. Perhaps I will put a  foot in next time. But definitely wiser.
(this whole thing sounds like some scam story. It's not. Merely a phase of gotten into a wrong crowd.)

I can't wait to get back to doing yoga

As much as I do not favour my current working condition, it was also a year I had to take charge of something at work. Not like I have not been doing it all the while in other company. As easier said than it's done, managing an office is not easy. All the action to be taken requires much thoughts and consideration before implementation. I guess not going out for sales and marketing purposes was good. t has given me a time to straighten up my skills in office management. I would  like to say I have a great concept, but I have bad implementation. In other words, I know what to do, but I am lazy to do ;(
I think I am going to remind myself to sharpen on the  implementation part for this coming year.

My weekends are now filled with kids. Joining MoneyTree and entertaining kids aside, I have not much choice but to learn alongside them on being financially savvy. Having to attend sessions of parental talks on being financially smart too have opened up my mind on the need to be financially smart despite the different level on wealth everyone had. And for the coming year, the goal is to find a time to cancel the Citibank credit card - bad service, manipulative with well rehearsed scripts for outsources customer service. The other goal And now that the world did not end - I guess I will have to continue living like the world will never end and settle the balance of the debts in another credit card. It feels awful ;(

Having more time on my own means I have also been able to write more! I enjoyed contributing to YSK that  it feels so uneasy not to receive emails constantly. Yes, I am a workaholic! Those little write ups have pretty much funded my shopping too. Actually those little extra money have pretty much funded my life, since salary is always late :/
The social media and blogging platform have brought me much exposure and friends. I have gotten more freelancing jobs than I could ever ask for. Opportunity is abundance. Really is a matter of being there and knowing people at the right time when it's in need. I have gotten something confirmed few months down the road. Those extra money will surely help to implement whatever that I have learnt in MoneyTree =D

And of course, having said that, all the exposure have created a bolder me!
Sometimes I do wonder where does the thick skin confidence comes from?
As much as I dwell on the fact that  I am fat (which I am), the shamelessness in public display of boldness just doesnt seem to sink.
I guess I am a born exhibitionist. And it is addictive.

am I hot enough for you babeh? =P

Being an exhibitionist means I love being fanciful in front of the camera. Regardless of whoever's camera! Most probably I won't die leaving a legacy, but I have at least ticked off some of the stuff that can happen in a person's life (whatever shit I am talking about)

check my flat ass

I have started the year wrong I think. I had bittergourd for lunches for a week. As the name suggest, 'bitter' / 'fu-kua' in Chinese, I hope it won't be gicing me a year long of bitterness ;/

I should have eaten something gold, like the pumpkin (kam-kua) to start the year. So random...

bitter-gourd face

Mum is still healthy as ever. I am glad she is. Not many of her age is as strong as she is. She is as irritating as ever. Something that old age did not manage to change her. I still have not done enough for her. I don't know how else. I try to compensate it in the form of monetary. Not that I have a lot.

I don't know if this is a concern, but have you ever wondered what will you do when the last of your parent leave you. Leaving you to be an orphan? Being on your own eventually. But being 34, I supposed this is just a phase that everyone have got to go thru. But I got into thinking about this almost every day. 

Most probably she will leave me not having to live a life she could have once wished for - a comfortable and worry free one. One where she will be taken care of by her one and only favourite son. But everyone we know, knew that it won't happen :(

I hope she will still be as healthy as she can for more years to come, and perhaps lesser irritating, of course.

I tried thinking of anything significant that could have happened in 2012 and nothing came up. I never went for any concert. Didn't catch a glimpse of any Prime Minister, celebrities or anyone important. Except for a guy who loves me like a boss! I don't think dying my hair in dip dye color is even worth mentioning. 

I basically survived the year in one piece with nothing extra ordinary or lesser than ordinary. but I lived another day if that's worth mentioning =D

For 2013, I think I am going to make a habit to fully pen down my daily 'to-do' and keep myself occupied with more work and yoga, of course! I am not sure if I can be as determined as Jaclyn who most probably spend 4 hours a day in the gym burning fats, stress and whatever that can be burnt, another 1 hour to google and store gym-going motivational quotes, like this;

@Fit_Motivator: Mental will is a muscle that needs exercise, just like muscles of the body. -Lynn Jennings

or this :

Not making any resolution as it is really like mocking ownself with a list of things that most probably sounded more like things that could happen ONLY if you own fairy dust powder. But I think it is going to be a good year ahead, if I can treat -

- talking to idiot as an acknowledgement that there are so many less competent people in this world and I am way better than them..

- people who waste my time as part of my contribution back to the society by giving them a second chance to being human

-traffic jam as a platform to do some work. Now this, I think I need some gadgets..

- not having enough money to always satisfy the Wants and Needs as part of the journey to being compassionate

I hope the bitter-gourd consumption won't affect me much :/

Because I just ate stir fry bitter gourd with chicken again today!!

No longer a matter that matter anymore

It was just last week when i so wanted to get a new high tech phone for many reasons i can justify at that time.

It was also last week that I have decided that I wanted to splurge a couple of hundred in getting collagen drinks - those magic potion that claims to bring me back youthfulness.

And the many past weeks that I have been spending my hard earned money on dresses and pretty lil stuff. That I most probably wouldn't make use of.
Perhaps this is just so abnormal, coming from one who cannot resist temptation.

In my life, I have scratched some cars out of angst.
Stole some fruits and food out of greed.
Threw other people's belonging out of angst. Again.
Cursed a tremendous amount of time out of angst. Again!

When I look at my collection of shoes, I guessed I shouldn't be tempted to buy any more as there are many others out there who have to wear torn shoes to school.

I looked at the 5 beauty boxes subscription that I have either subscribed to or was sponsored. Each one cost at least RM30-RM60. I intend to get another. Then I realised that many others uses off -the- counter RM5 facial foam and not even hand lotion, moisturiser and whatever serum. I supposed I don't need another beauty box subscription. As I have more than enough products compared to many others.

I splurged RM190 on 2 corset - some outfit that cannot even be worn when you are out to work, or at home, or for a casual eat out in some seafood restaurant. All because I cannot resist the temptation and peer pressure.
Only to go home and realise, with RM190, I could send my mum to the dentist and have at least 2 tooth rectified at least? And RM190 could well be a week salary of some dishwasher, despatch rider, or some roti canai dough maker. And now, I get to admire some boudoir based corset in the confinement of my room while mum have to choose her food since she can't chew as strong with her weak tooth, despatch rider eating a RM2 rice wth lots of rice and only gravy. And roti canai dough maker, eating left over roti canai for the day ;(

Then I wanted a great wedding! One by the side of the beach, or done in an open garden style.
With handmade trinkets as gifts, and a photobooth for snapping away, and a big wall banner - for camwhoring again! Then I see that fatty is working 7 days a week. Waking up at 6.30am and reaching home only 9pm. Not with the full intention to fund the wedding. But cus there is a workload waiting for him every day since some new projects started. But then it triggers me again. All the hard work an effort to go into a wall back drop? And to host tables and tables of people who most probably have been bitching about me and my family.

Today, alot of things doesn't seem to matter anymore. I guessed I have spent too much time on wishing upon a gigantic star and have forgotten to be back on the ground sometimes.
Today, I have rooted myself back to the humble ground, I would like to assume.

And today, if you think that it's a new beginning to a new you and that you can live a more fulfilling day than yesterday, then Merry X'mas to you!

If you are still in the same shit hole, oh well, you still deserve a breather.. Happy Merry X'mas la!

In The Centre again...

December is a month of picture taking. Not talking about standing under some X'mas grand decor in some highly publicised mall taking picture kinda picture taking.
As long as you get stuck with Sha-Lene, you get pictures taken. That kinda picture.

I am proud to have own these freaking higher-than-heaven 6-7-8 inches heels ;)

Color-blocking suede pink/black Heels - The Agape Boutique

Blue Glitter Heels - The Fashion Barrage

Black Suede Heels - The Agape Boutique

Short legs - yours truly

Assortment of leggings - Aishop

I am a distorted UK12 to UK14 and sometimes I can even do a fake UK10.
At all time I envision myself in either nothing or in the tightest of bodycon dresses.
Maybe God is fair. He didn't give me that UK8-10 body that I have always wanted. Else, I won't be sitting here, in my dirty damn room, on a Saturday afternoon with nothing much to do but to write crap.
If I am a UK8 ;
- I would be out FLIRTING. I am still a flirter now, juts not as bold.
- I would be out bra-less. (wait, this has got nothing to do with size of body, but size of boobs only)
- I would be doing a boudoir shoot in nothing or in some lil' g string bikini
- I would have to work damn alot harder than now to finance my fashion addiction cus then I will need lots of dresses and accessories and make up.

Now that I am still HERE, in a state of being nowhere and maybe sometimes people call it 'in-the'middle' of the thin people and the plus size people, I am left.... UNDEFINED.. wtf
It's like being some under-developed woman with no direction in life. Shall I go thin? Shall I go big? But seems like I ain't getting anywhere but in between liddat...
It's so easy to go big - just gotta laze  more and eat more, but seriously, given a choice,
It takes a lot of determination to go thin or let's call it healthy normal size (not to say the rest are abnormal) , because it means no more food at night? Cannot snack? Cannot accept free food at anytime of the day? Spend time on working out like a cow? As if working hard in office is not enough to torture that little of life left.

At this point of writing, it seems to go nowhere.. but stuck in the centre again... phuckkk..

Now that I am still a UK12 ;
- I still buy lots of bodycon dresses (can't help it, a born bitch who need to flaunt)
- I still think I look hot and awesome like that..
- I still camwhore like a fashionista
- I am working equally hard to finance my fashion and beauty addiction ( erm.. like so irrelevant..)


Wah.. this post is getting nowhere ..
I guess I gotta suck it up and still live like a UK12 that I am lor... just hotter and better version only ;)

All attire from Aishop

bwwaarrrr!!!!  check the thick waist ;(

All attire from Aishop except for my Asos Aztec bodysuit  >.<

great heels, fat thigh, bloated tummy - but still hot

great heels, short legs, bloated tummy - but still hot

great heels, fat chin, bloated tummy - but still hot

ala Hongkie 'bery-good-job-done' ending to the shoot with the Aishop team

Corset Me

If I am a UK8, corset would be a daily staple and worn with the shortest of shorts or mini skinny skirt >.<

But because I am a UK12 and not very sociable, corset would be my fetish collection to showcase during camwhore session - in my small lil damn messy room.

And so, with a mind that turn insane looking at these super sexy-I-wish-I-can-pop-half-a-boob-out corset, I was RM200 ringgit poorer. Could have feed a small village with bubur lambuk or bubur kosong with RM200 ;(

The  best picture captured for December 2012 

That Choice

I had a choice.
To go to the kopitiam downstairs and get lunch fixed for a mere RM7.
But I think I will settle for the left over of food in the fridge - soggy briyani and even more soggy pickled cucumber. There's some sausages in the freezer to pop into the briyani too.

I found an umbrella under the blanket just as I was puling the blanket to sleep.
I woke up with this irritating vibrating noise from my back. The old phone was furiously in alarm mode, snuggling directly on my back bone. I wonder if I had enough radiation for the night.

There's a cup - with some water left in it. I spotted the cup past 2 weeks. or could it be 3 weeks?
On my work table, next to a box of makeup brushes, in front of an empty tissue box and besides an empty yogurt bottle, sitting on top of a stack of post office bills. There's still water in it. I though hydration normally takes place in such condition. No?


Some vendor is sponsoring me this. Because I enquired to purchase. Sheer luck.
Always wanted a pet. I guess a synthetic leather one would be great. Doesn't poo, doesn't cringe. Most probably would end up snuggly directly on my spine.

Pussy  Cat Clutch

Got Michelle this for RM1.90. For reasons unknown. Just thought it's a pretty thing to be valued at RM1.90 and you see some loose-cracks selling it for RM25 somwhere else. It's cheap, X'mas is near, oh well.. 

I am a bad friend. because she got me a laptop table and more stuff which I have to multiply with RM1.90 for many many times... I vow to be a better person and hopefully I be able to serve the entire nation. soon...

Some art studio is sponsoring me this too. No. I am not Jasmine and Adam is not my guy. I mean this kinda doodle / caricature. I think I am gonna keep this and later blow it up to A0 size as a wedding picture that people put up in front of their bed - in case I seriously can't afford any wedding portraits. And in case I DO get married. Project thrifty mode..

Doodling services from Black Milk Studio

It's a Sunday noon already. And those work files is still in the weaved bag. I don't know. I just do't know just how many hours a day do I need. I seriously thought I managed my time, life and everything well.

And I gotta leave for another review session incouple of hours - for reasons I have yet to know. Let it be fame, if it must. 

The soggy briyani just turned soggier after steaming it, with 3 sausages on top. 

I hope I don't get diarrhea..

@ WORK

Work.
Could have never gotten easier nowadays.
I wanted to vent out a lot of fume, but am left with none after days of crisis.

As much as I hate facing these difficult times at work I would like to assume I have gotten better in handling issues. I can't be a diplomat or a negotiator yet, but I am getting somewhere. It's stressful.
Damn a lot of humiliation when you fail to deliver what has been promised and all one can do is to send a smirk over the phone in explaining the cause of the problem.

I also see that many wants to find the one to blame. before deciding on how to solve.
When a house is on fire, do you insist on knowing what happen first or saving the lives of those in the house?
Unfortunately, many choose to stand in existence and yell out 'What  happened?? What happened? Who lit the fire?' and the mystery remained unsolved.

Its not that difficult to solve, but what if everyone is to be blamed?
For not strapping the curtain so that it will not fly and caught fire on the candle at the table top?
The wind for being wind and blowing the curtain.
The table for being a support for the candle at that suitable location
The curtain for being so light and easily blown.

Now, it is almost over.
Leaving some remnants of hiccups that I hope to be able to rectify.
Hoping to carve the situation according to the mould of my hand.
And hoping to at least salvage what is left, and leaving with a solid footprint of excellence.
Perhaps I should  not be too confident.
But I shall continue hoping to be on the right track.

One more day before this pretty midget goess off the discount trolley ;(

I don't think I am curvy enough with a beer belly, but da heck.. I shall go forward

Rubbish!

I would say it is gross. Stinky and plain gross.
Then I realise someone gotta do the dirty job. Of getting rid of these gross, yucky disposal.

As I watch the two Indian guys clearing the rubbish  dripping which juice and flinging it into the disposal truck, it didn't strike me that what is gross to me is someone else's rice bowl.

It's hard to not be able to get a job that you want.
Everybody wants something.
I want to be famous. I want to stop being in the same lift with the bunch of chatty and loud, short neighbouring woman.
I want to have my own parking lot.
I want a career that I can perhaps be passionate at.
I have also wish that I can perhaps camwhore and get money - because that's my 'passion'.
I hope I can write and turn it into cash, just because I think I can write well.
Whatever.

I am sure the two Indian guys wants a decent meal. And be able to fork a big heap of curry chicken meat onto their plate instead of scooping gravy in hope to lower down the charges of that plate of rice.

I don't think they want me to perceive that they are equally as gross as what they are flinging onto the truck.
I don't think they want to grow old and tell the story of the famous Muthusamy - the garbage collector who made a living disposing gross, juicy rubbish from people who think that the rubbish is gross.

Given a chance, and a flip of fate perhaps, everybody wants something. But not everybody gets everything.
What is gross to you is another treasure to others, perhaps.

Tomorrow, I shall have a better way to garbage management.

On Being Frugal

Something that is hard to follow sometimes but this is a good guide for all young starters who is looking for a smoother sailing life - in case the world doesn't end faster than  your pocket getting thinner.

A Wrap for the Week - July 2012

3 days into slimming drinks and died.. Every week past so fast and it's been an entire week I have been bringing home this folder that carries documents of a project in Lumut in hope to get some project claims done and nothing gets done. It's the end of the second week I am bring the damn file home!

Loots from Emcee Couture's tea party event last saturday

Slim belts @RM10 from  Tank for 5!! omg so cheap how not to buy!

Vintage dress from Peep Boutique @RM10 <3

I got the leopard slim belt from Tankfor5 at RM5 only as she was actually wearing it and it was the last stock of the same design she brought for the event, so she decided to sell it to me at RM5 only! <3 <3  ahh cheapo, I don't mind being called one!

Tried on the Leverag curler set sponsored by Supermodels' Secrets before I go on an actual review. Great for those of you who always fancy wanting to know how u look like with curls. I put it on half a head and slept on it the whole night =D Wait for the full review soon in YourShoppingKaki.com

the 5 mins before sleep  and the 5 mins immediately after waking up 

more on it in the actual review ;)

I haven't started the review on the Bubbi brushes too! Though I have  been religiously using it. I just found out that the Ecotools brush set I got was a fake set...  can't say much since I only got it for RM20 a set -_-

of Bubbi brushes, fake ecotools brushes, elianto brushes and some bangkok-bought brushes

Waited for Michelle who is forever late >.< and twist and twisted myself a boho braid headband =D

Ladies and gentlemen, gods and angels and stray cats in the neighbourhood, I am pleased to announced that for the first time in my life ever since the internet connection was invented, I WON a give away!

How lucky can I get immediately after turning 33 on July 5th! Yes, wish me lah...

At first I thought maybe the organiser of the giveaway was trying to let me win since I have been diligently joining just to win something (so I can save on buying), but coming from a Randomizer, I guess the tables have turned and I have gotten some luck immediately after turning a year older =D

Now I just need the luck to go to office and see if there is enough funds to get my May salary paid =S

I don't celebrate birthsdays, Valentines' Day, Independant Day, and whatever other commercialised days they possibly exist. Because I simply cannot justify why the need to. I however celebrate Cheng Beng and Vijayadasami where needed. So.. yeah, no pictures of whatever party to usher the life of being a 33 years old woman who can't go lower than a size 12.. knn...

I don't even need gifts. In fact I got the best gift that I would want every year - cash!! 

Christopher was just a random friend from Facebook and Msn and based in Kazakhstan somemore. We never even met and this is considered generous dy!! LOLOLOL

Jeslyn - met her once when she tagging along with her friend whom I was supposed to meet, treated her to a fats porridge meal, became Facebook friend and now I got gift!! =D how random! 

Jac - another shopaholics I have known thru online shopping and have become friends for like 3 years? and continuing! Thank you for the gift!! =D

see!! These people cannot wait to bank in money to me!!! Ling Ling so cute from TinyPinc - the mini clay maker <3

Michelle is godly - seriously. She not only have sponsored me alot of her Supermodel's Secrets beautifying products, but I cannot ever forget the fact that she have bought me a Zaggora Hot Pants that is like so freaking expensive at RM199!! I will do anything for Michelle! Even clean her office toilet! <3

Mechell - most probably find it worthy to give me this since I have been one of her favourite online entertainer with lame jokes to entertain her whenever she feels lame and bored. And this is also her second year to contribute to my birthday fund!.. I hope there is more to come for my next year's birthday!! =P

Sha lene - my compadre in msn!! <3 If Willi isn't your boyfriend, most probably I can get as much msn time compared to Willi too.. thank god to your bf >.<  A great friend, with such positive vibes I hope I am not siphoning out all her good vibes! I Love You!! 

And this is a pretty composition of digital arts I believe (though a lot says its hand drawn) from Meow - an online shopper who always buy my stuff!! I love those pretty dancers' sillhoutte, tho the main picture looked more Joanne Kam Poh Poh than me =D =D

What did I do to deserve such great community of friends??? 

And yeah, so that was how the 33rd years have been treating me. With lots of love ;)

And this is also the year which I have develop so much interest in a lot of stuff.

 The love for Hyun Bin oppa and KimchiHaru in JayaOne with korean waiter boss*drools* 

Finally got myself into the bubble-tea drinking trend. I swear I don't know what are these before!

forced to do this. Don't ask yet..

started bag making for sustainability reason - at turtle slow-mo rate tho ;)

contracted the Asos buying spree.. dont ask.

and did so much camwhore that even I myself cannot stand sometimes.. but prettier camwhore than last year!! =D

don't vomit pleaseeee....

And as I dwelve myself into so many things happening in my life, people must be thinking maybe it's time to go look for a relationship. After all at 33 now, I most probably won't be as fertile as a 26 years old who can breed you a brood... mehhh.... I think I am over that phase of desperation to be in the group of people who have discussion on the best kindergarten for a better nurtured child yada yada... 

People says I am selective.. I am not - seriously. I just couldn't be bothered to start selecting or to compile specimen to perform selection process to start with =D

yeah, I am choosing not to answer certain calls but I swear I am not selective! O.o