Things That Makes You Happy

What would be the thing that you think would make your day?
As I scroll down the news feed in my Facebook  reading shoutout from friends, I do sense that alot of us are attempting to do alot of things to make life complete. Or I would say to fill the void of being in a blank state of mind. Or in the very least, let other people in our friends' list know that we are leading a LIFE.

Some find joy in cooking. Some find joy in snapping 9,456 pictures of their kids in juts a single day, trying not to miss any single second of their child's development. Yes, not a single glance of that darn baby is left out. Some of course find joy in self adoration - like me.

Self stalking..

Today, I wish to be in deep thoughts, rendering complicated words that can mesmerise you.. making you salivate at the reading of my complexity of contents. I cannot find any single interesting issue that could have pricked upon me today ;(

Sometimes I am concerned.

On why I can eat 'yee mee' for every weekends with the same request to have extra egg and coupled with Nescafe.

On why I can have McD breakfast daily ordering the same thing day in and day out.

On why I can sleep with 4 pillows bundled on a single bed like a pile of rubbish.

On why I can linger around in my room that stores a million strands of my hair strewn on the floor.

On why I keep wishing the world will come to an end

On why I feel the need to look good, dress up but chose to stay at home camwhoring, idling, staring blankly at walls and not go see the other side of the world

Could this be like some aging steps to growing old like what Chindi is yapping about?

It's Saturday today. A not working Saturday. Pleasant.

Took me 3 hours to decide if I should run some errands, meet some friends and try flock off some of the dresses at home. 3 hours randomly self staring at my newly colored hair, checking out results from 2 hours of drenching in the LUS V line mask for a slimmer chin (yesterday), sending work related emails in a bid to impress boss (only to forget he is 3 levels lazier than I am and sometimes asked me why do I keep sending / cc him emails).

I finally decided to finish this post here. Now. Without much content. Because my thoughts were never deep enough to have a proper content.

And I want to go downstairs to get a bowl of 'yee mee' with extra egg coupled with iced cold Nescafe now =_=

(if you notice, the title for the post were not even relevant... that was chosen 3 weeks back when I was slightly happy. I am not that happy today...)

kthxbai..

When You Wake Up

Sometimes alot of us try very hard to be the perfect epitome of what we wanted those around us to see.
So we talk like a boss
We smirk like a succesful business person securing a great deal
We give opinion like a prime minister
We make decision like we are the grandmaster from Lord of the Ring

Little did we know
From another corner of the table
They may perceive you on another perspective you never knew
You talk like an aged diva with no essence
Your wry smile reminds others that you are as crude as the nosy neughbour next door who steals the neighbourhood sandals
Your opinion does not matter, because no one will be convinced that your house can be a temple
Your decision making skills is so scarce that the smell of a fart makes a bigger impact

To tell you that you sucks is to tell the mirror that it is dirty
To not to tell you anything is most probably a catalyst to enlarge the ego tumor in you
To laugh at you is like laughing at a sore loser who have yet to know how sore is the wound on the feet

I feel for you my friend..
I feel..
When you have learnt that life is more than what you perceive it is according to your egoistic opinion
Perhaps then you can knock on my door and say Hi :)

totally irrelevant but Hi!! 

Lizard oh Gizzards

I seriously hate this darn creature.. so much more gross than the dirty crockcroaches. Interestingly, there isn't any cockroaches at home but there is like an entire Joe Lizardy family clan monopolising the bottom of the sofa couches and every dark corner possible tat they can locate with their darn gross GPS and pervetic stare.

So I spotted a big fat juicy cold looking one, looking like a dinosaur lying near the cabinet where my lens casing are and next to a dust bin, next to my room's door!! At midnight. It didn't move and was lookign fresh as ever. Tried jumping and create some motion on the floor and the stupid thing was haningin on like a cool dude!!! Hate it!!!!! Y U NO Scare of me??

Checked again at 12.35am
Then 1.30am. Then 2.15am.
Then 3.00 am.
Then 3.54am.

Y U NO LEAVE MY TERRITORY!!!
Yes I was awake in hope that the stupid darn cold 'alligator' would wake up from his pervetic glaring sleep and leave me alone!

It's pretty disgusting and not to mention I'm known to have a flair in my imagination.
I literally felt it.
When I was in the shower, it feels like it's raining lizards.
When I was munching chips while watching, it feels like I am having fried lizards :S
When I sleep, I sometimes wonder if it does crawl over my face, pee on into my nostril and licked my ears and whip it's fragile tail onto my mouth !!!!

I woke up with a fever and a headache and an awfully weird feeling in my tummy. As if I have swallowed a lizard or the curse of the lizards have controlled me. The darn lizard was still staying stagnant in his cool position!

I had to endure the pain and dizziness and the purging feeling the entire day!!
Till Ma came home and I asked her to rid the lizard.

And at 9.30pm it was out of the house.

Guess what...

The dreadfull headache and the purging urge and the drowsiness are gone after that!!!

OMFG u darn gross animal!!! What an impact you made to my life!!


On a random note, to losers with doubts

Office

These are most probably the most productive time ever I had in my working life - having to go thru details and specifications and badly formatted documents. After about 2 months without an admin assistant to help me out with petty jobs and someone to take up calls (since I was never on time to work) for me in the office, I think I must have formatted the entire office according to how I think it should be. Besides the inconsistent supply of toilet papers in the toilet, I think things are going on smooth.
Invoices, Delivery orders, Purchase Orders, Progressive Claims and even attendance are all in proper format (MY FORMAT) and every other things / event/ issues / documents comes with a Summary or Listing Sheet.
Something I deem very important in case I decided to die while sleeping and they will know where are the files being placed. More often than not I have failed to impose in my boss the need to READ what I ask him to sign. And most often than not, he only sign and NOT READ. *chinaman mode*

Some people choose to work within their scope and get their end of the month wages and be happy. I, unfortunately is not aware of my scope as the scope proposed by me to boss is way more than what the universe would want to give me.. (is this even a proper statement?)

I am a self confessed lazy workaholic. Yes, I enjoy working while being lazy at the same time. I am most probably at the peak of my life when I get to engage in conversation with very high return of investment, being it monetarily or emotionally. It is always great to gain something extra when talking to people, finishing a task that you never thought you can do or simply to be able to light a bulb over the mind when in a discussion :)

Throught out the few weeks that I am office bound doing something that I was never asked to do as it is deemed a waste of my time when measured with my salary ( so says the ex-boss), I realised that I do have some internal skills that I have yet to hone =D

I guess one would never know how far can one reach unless she reaches out her feet to feel the air first :)
Only when you see the outcome then would you have an answer to your capacity..

But that is not my worry now.

Human resource is such a tricky issue. A sensitive one too. I may not have seen one too many bosses, but I sure do have seen enough to know that some action just doesn't work and no justification is deemed suffice to prove that IT WON"T WORK.

And now I have to get rid of people deem not resourceful..
I am scared - because I am the only female in the office
I am scared - because I can sometimes blurt out very hurtful statement and people may stab me with the office scissors.
I am scared - maybe after all the heated argument the said person still refuses to leave.
But I am seriously scared - if I made the wrong judgement and not very wise decision ;(

Of Those Beauty Tutorials..

Getting ready to work nowadays seems to be more time-dragging than usual. I gotta look good!. Looking fanstico.. Afterall, it is a male-dominated office and I ain't going to let their lackadaisical in dressing affect me into being a woman. Yes, a painful, biased point perhaps, coming from a female who would do anything just to look good enough for the crowd. An unknown crowd too most of the time. I don't think I have ever skipped a day with no proper make-up before going into office. 

Now that I am embracing the need to look prim and proper and hot (of course) at work (despite working *foreveralone* in the office), I think I am developing some serious shit case of water retention

a freaking 73kgs by NOW!! grandmother of god!! :(

I just don't know where those water comes from!!! And I would want to believe it is water and not poly unsaturated fats. Please no :(

I have been staying awake almost every night digging these inspirational make up tips from BeautyQQ and am totally addicted!! What happened to the 33 years old woman who is supposed to spend more time writing corporate shitzels!? -_-

The wonders of the online world is seriously killing me. So much to learn, so much to be inspired and so much to emulate!

Watching make up tutorials is like... watching Indian movies. They said that when you watch way too much Indian movies, you have a tendency to hope that the man of your life will always be as good looking as Amir Khan, as caring and lovey as Sharukh Khan and as macho as Hrithik Roshan. And that as a woman, one day, sooner or later, no matter how, you will fall unto the hand of a man with the mentioned 3 persona. But in most time, in real life, it doesn't get materialise...

The same with good beauty make up tutorial. Once you watched a couple of it, you start to get a hang of it and attempted the various form of technique taught and visually, emotionally, 'hallucina-cally' envision yourself being transformed.into super-duper-gorgeous-u-wanna-cry hot babe.. 

Queenie Chan of BeautyQQ is addictive and is so awe-inspiring that I literally and practically am late to work ever since I wacthed and emulate her tutorials -_-

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I condone shaded eye make-up technique - or whatever you call it..

previously learn from Michelle Phan =D

did you realise I have a 'senget' eyebrow? :(

I am seriously considering cosmetic surgery, if I have not mention before in any post.

eyebrow so wrong...

most probably the thickest eyebrow ever done for a dance act..

still senget!!

the adverse effect of too many Youtube make up tutorial - you just got to see the after result of each tutorial learnt!

can't remember where I learnt this side-swept bangs from. Further enhance my sponge-bob's face...

not sure what is this for, but the first attempt on trying the new foundation i got from Borjois - the organic foundation made from melons and such... yeah, weird much but feels light and orgasmic!! >.<

Eyelining with kajal cone-stick <3

All of the made-up look above have been layered with a good spread of the Safi Balqis - Perfect 10 Beauty Cream before spreading of the Missha BB Cream or the Borjois Healthy Mix Foundation

One happy family- Borjois - Healthy Mix Foundation / Kajal cone / Ettusais Eyeliner

days without makeup and with a slightly better complexion.. or perhaps it's the sunlight..

the cheap and useful skin primer - Safi Balqis Beauty Cream at below RM8!!

I have tried smelling the Gold Series of the beauty cream and don't think I like the halia or whatever chemical smell in it. This is by far the best after the Wangi SP Cream which cost me RM35 a single palette ;)

But on most of the days when I am in the confinement of my small little house, I must say I looked like SHIT

pure shit like that...

OK, bye, I want to go watch more tutorials videos of make up and pole dancing... yes, pole dancing.. =P